When Life Throws You Curveballs

"You don't develop courage by being happy in your relationships everyday. You develop it by surviving difficult times and challenging adversity." -Epicurious

It's hard for me to talk about things.

Sometimes I want to talk.

Sometimes I don't.

I can't let difficulties keep me from living.

I can't let sad situations keep me from doing things I love.

Family isn't always fun.

It definitely isn't easy.

Sometimes it seems impossible.

Happiness is:

Seeing others' joy.

A good night's sleep.

Knowing you're doing the absolute best you can.

Please Stop Saying That

I loved this book. Did I mention this before? I don't know if I LOVE Kelly Cutrone but I definitely respect her. She's been through some crazy stuff and has come out of it on top. She seems like an amazing mom and a really great/scary woman to work for. I really recommend reading this.

Kelly was in Bryant Park today talking and signing copies of her book. Obviously I missed it, but trusty Racked has all the scoop. Something she said that really stood out for me was this:

"Editorial, magazine, we are going to say buh-bye to them as we know them. They will still exist but everything is on the internet."

Honestly, I'm so sick of hearing this. I love the internet-I blog, I tweet, Four Square, Facebook, you name it, I'm on it. But what I really love is a magazine, a book, PAPER. Nothing will ever replace the smell of a new, or old, book. Nothing will take the place of going through a huge magazine pulling out your favorite parts and putting them on your wall (I still do that.) There's nothing better than devouring pages and pages of new clothes with amazing layouts. Am I in denial or will print media never go away? Maybe it's happening, but I just don't want it to. If someone offered me a job online tomorrow I would take it, writing is writing, but my passion is in print.

What do you guys think? Will everyone have iPads soon and magazines will cease to exist?!? :(

I'm a Loser

OK, I know I'm not a loser. I've been living in NYC mostly sans any help since I was 18. No one paid for my rent or school. My mom or dad usually pay my phone bill and sometimes books or a medical expense when I need it but they aren't made of money. I'm 25 now and even though I'm still in school, taking my slow-ass time and working full time, I HATE asking for money. I had to suck it up and ask my mom to pay my cable bill and it is quite depressing. I know she doesn't mind but it makes me feel horrible, like I can't get my shit together. My roommates' parents pay everything for them (they're 22-23.) It's no big deal for them and they are really awesome girls. For some reason, it hurts my soul to take money from my mom. I know a lot of adults, I'm an adult but like 30s, whose parents paid for a down payment on an apartment, a student loan or two, etc. When is the last time you asked for money? How did you feel? Do you think 25 is WAY too old? What's the cut-off until you're a loser? :(

MTV Movie Awards: Red Carpet Part 2

Confession: I squeal when I see Zac Efron! Sigh. Vanessa Hudgens' Jenny Packham dress looks almost exactly like what I wear to bed. You're Zac's GF (or beard.) Step it up.

OK, the positive? This crazy Pamella Roland jumpsuit is covering her SCRAM anklet. At least she's not showing it off! I just don't get who lets her go out like this. Lindsey, I miss you!

Breaking News!! I found a picture of Kristen Stewart smiling! It's easy to forget that she's actually really pretty. I love the Dolce and Gabbana dress on her and the ponytail is super cute. Obviously, I still hate her. (Did you see the way Rob was looking at her?!!?)

Sadness

Its been so sad hearing about everything happening in VA that I am trying to not think about it. I feel so selfish but if I obsess over something ELSE that I can't control I will lose my mind. Columbine, than 9/11, the Bush administration, gay rights, the innocent Iraqis AND the troops in the war, global warming, animal cruelty, ugh, I could go on forever! I know I'm not selfish. I campaign for Peta, I give money to the HRC, I vote and recycle. Today I NEED a distraction. I feel guilty but it overwhelms me. Do you guys feel this at all? I didn't have family in 9/11, but it still makes me cry randomly. I don't even know anyone in VA and its making me so sad. Before you even say it, yes, I have been on antidepressants since I was young, but this is different. I get so mad at some people, like my BFF Danielle who doesn't recycle or vote (ahhhh), or my brother who doesn't really feel any sadness for things like VTech. I get mad, but a part of me envies them. I have my own problems, my own life to deal with, and I know I need to focus on the positive while not being ignorant to the things happening in our world. I'm just going to try to do the best I can. I guess that's all I can do. Tomorrow, an American Idol post because its a positive, fun, distraction. Stay tuned! 2 words: Jordin's dress! *Sigh.