Sadness

Its been so sad hearing about everything happening in VA that I am trying to not think about it. I feel so selfish but if I obsess over something ELSE that I can't control I will lose my mind. Columbine, than 9/11, the Bush administration, gay rights, the innocent Iraqis AND the troops in the war, global warming, animal cruelty, ugh, I could go on forever! I know I'm not selfish. I campaign for Peta, I give money to the HRC, I vote and recycle. Today I NEED a distraction. I feel guilty but it overwhelms me. Do you guys feel this at all? I didn't have family in 9/11, but it still makes me cry randomly. I don't even know anyone in VA and its making me so sad. Before you even say it, yes, I have been on antidepressants since I was young, but this is different. I get so mad at some people, like my BFF Danielle who doesn't recycle or vote (ahhhh), or my brother who doesn't really feel any sadness for things like VTech. I get mad, but a part of me envies them. I have my own problems, my own life to deal with, and I know I need to focus on the positive while not being ignorant to the things happening in our world. I'm just going to try to do the best I can. I guess that's all I can do. Tomorrow, an American Idol post because its a positive, fun, distraction. Stay tuned! 2 words: Jordin's dress! *Sigh.