My 2nd Fav Family

So many of us have dreams. It may sound corny, but you know the deal. You are supposed to be doing homework or helping a client at work and you're thinking of it. When someone asks you what you want to do with your life, you pause before answering. I have always kept mine a secret for a lot of reasons. Mostly because I didn't want anyone to knock it down. Also, it's kinda' nice to keep it to myself. Well, I'm done...mostly. I'm "out" as a wanna-be actor to most of the people close to me. I just love it. Of course I want some money to be comfortable in this city, but I really just want to be in crazy, provocative, amazing movies/T.V. shows. OK, goal set now the hard part of actually stop being a wuss and put myself out there. Why is it so scary? It isn't just the rejection that I am obviously going to face. I don't really know what it is. Its easier to sit at home, watching Top Model, and hoping I'll get discovered when I actually go out. The problem is, it doesn't happen. And if it does, its to 5'10'' leggy tourists taking pictures of buildings in Times Square. Needless to say, that's not me. So I have to start knocking down doors. I need to get them slammed in my face. Easier said than done. Now, I have other goals, like working at a top fashion mag, and teaching Special Needs kids. So if this acting thing doesn't work out, there are other things I would be happy doing. But I won't know if I can do it until I try.
I'm sure you're wondering why I have a picture of the Sopranos family. Tomorrow I am being a high school student in a episode of the new season. It a super tiny job, but its something. Any ideas on what to wear? What do Jersey high school kids wear now? I'm nervous and I don't know why. I don't even have to say anything! Its a mixture of actually working towards my dream and also because last time I worked for HBO I fainted in front of 100 people. That's a whole other post.
What are you guys most afraid of accomplishing? And why is it so scary? Since I'm doing this tomorrow, I want everyone to conquer something that makes them uncomfortable. My dad always told me that the hardest thing to do is usually the right thing and it seems to be turning out to be true. I'll let you know how it goes! xo