Dating Diary Chapter 2: The Contenders

Sorry I have been a little MIA-been under the weather. No, not due to Blake's loss ;) Did you see him on Regis? *sigh

The online dating is coming along. I have taken into account all of the awesome things you guys have said and I need your help again. Here are 6 of the guys who sent me either an e-mail or a "wink:"

1. Joea1980:
Is he cute?? I think. It isn't the most clear picture.
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: nope, NYC
Is he old?: 26 (perfect)
But what does he do? Jazz musician
What are his positives? He's artistic and loves Stephen Colbert.
OK OK, give me the bad things: He likes to try new food. (I eat, like, 4 things and I'm OK with that.) He wants to be a teacher. (Maybe I'm a bad person but that means no money-sorry! It wouldn't be why I don't go out with him though.)He doesn;t like mainstream things. (What, no Hanna Montana??)
Overal score?? 6

2. Savagelamb
Is he cute?? Not really. I'm not into the really long hair thing.
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: nope, NYC
Is he old?: 31 (ok..)
But what does he do? HIV Prevention Theatre (I have no idea what it is but it sounds cool.)
What are his positives? See above, and loves working with children.
OK OK, give me the bad things: He's 5'5". He uses words like "aiight." And he claims to be wishy-washy (meaning I will walk all over him).
Overal score?? 3

3. NYCartist
Is he cute?? I can't see his face-bad thing?
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: nope, NYC
Is he old?: 26
But what does he do? Segment producer.
What are his positives? writer, 6'3". He wants someone who will keep him on his toes.
OK OK, give me the bad things: Direct quote: "I'm not one for the superficial, and thus, probably won't be into the kind of woman who takes 3 hours to get ready for brunch on a Sunday afternoon." And, he's a Taurus.
Overal score?? 6

4. Gevawo
Is he cute?? I think so.
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: Brooklyn
Is he old?: 24
But what does he do? student, working toward PhD in Philosophy
What are his positives? Vegan! seems really low-key
OK OK, give me the bad things: in a band, Brookyln is also kind of far, do I feel like being with another student?
Overal score?? 8

5. Eyes
Is he cute?? can't see his face
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: worse, Ohio
Is he old?: 31
But what does he do? "law"
What are his positives? great body, athletic, real job
OK OK, give me the bad things: um..Ohio? and he wants a girl who enjoys physical sports
Overal score?? 4

6. woogymodel
Is he cute?? no
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: he does!
Is he old?: 36
But what does he do? programmer
What are his positives? passionate about gun control and womens' rights.
OK OK, give me the bad things: see all of the above
Overal score?? 2

I admit defeat.

Congrats to Jordin. I'm still buying this shirt.
http://www.cafepress.com/blakergirls

I heard a rumor...

that Britney will "preform" on American Idol tonight. What do you think? Do you care? Go Blake!!

Please join us.

OK, I know we have a while until the election, but I'm ready to start. This is the most important part of our lives right now and everyone needs to get involved. I don't have any money and I am only one person but we can't give up. After the Bush "win" I was insanely depressed thinking that I, including most people I knew, didn't matter. I am doing everything I can to not feel that way.

I can't give a lot of money but anything helps. I also really believe that word of mouth is the most important thing. People actually told me that they thought of me as they voted last election. There is nothing more flattering than that.

Please read what you can about Hillary. Trust me, she is great. I can go into Planned Parenthood tonight, say that I don't have any money, and get free birth control. When I got into the city, that is exactly what I did. She wants to get us out of Iraq ASAP (thank god), get gay people the rights they deserve, and let women keep their reproductive rights. Is she perfect? No, but she's the best we've got. She isn't totally liberal enough for me, but she will get better when she gets into office; she just needs some conservative vote.

What about Obama, you ask? Sure he's a GREAT looking guy. So is John Edwards. The both have great values and ideas. They would both make great presidents but all of these great candidates are going to cancel each other out and a Republican will win again. Its so frustrating! I have a really soft spot in my heart for Gore but its the same deal.

Please do what you can. Read today. Talk tomorrow. Vote Hillary 2008.

Reason #5,482 that I love NY.

The Fresh Direct Pear

SUCH good food-to my door at 10:30 pm! Unfortunately, this cute guy didn't come.

Dating Diary Chapter 1: The Profile

Couldn't look less like me..

As a serial monogamous, I really have no idea how to date. I don't know if I have ever been out on a date with a stranger. Hmm..the only one I can think of was the start of my last long relationship and that was on Drag Queen Bingo Night. I'm talking about the kind of date that involves a fancy restaurant with food I don't really want to eat and awkward small talk. Ugh. I do, however, think that it is important to date lots of people, even just to meet and become friends. That being said, it sucks. If I didn't care, I would sit home, order pizza, and watch episode after episode of 24. I will never meet anyone like that! My dream of locking eyes with a cute 20 to 30-something while ordering a sugar-free vanilla soy Chai is slowly vanishing.

To make a long story short, I joined a liberal dating website. (I thought about what was MOST important to me, and similar morals are it-IE no Bush lovers!) It is so scary because these people are total strangers! Even if I follow all of the rules, like going out in a public place, how do I know when it is safe to be alone? How I know when this person is safe at all? Do these things REALLY work?

OK, I am getting ahead of myself. First, I made a profile. Here are some things I included (that are honest):

1. I love to read and write.
2. I am 5'4."
3. I live in NYC.
4. I am a Libra.
5. I am a vegetarian.
6. I go to school.

Here are some things I didn't say (but are honest):

1. I can take 3 hours to get ready.
2. Although I love to read, I mostly read chic lit, crime novels, or Glamour.
3. I am 5'3 1/2."
4. I will complain every time I smell meat.
5. I go to school and have at least 2 other jobs.
6. Did I mention I was a little high maintenance?
7. I don't do outdoors.
8. I have issues with Taurus'.
9. I listen to Hilary Duff and watch Saved by the Bell every morning.
10. I want to see other countries but traveling scares me.

I wouldn't even want to date me! What would your profile look like? I already have 3 "winks!"

To bang or not to bang...'tis the question.

Me, without bangs..
and with bangs.









I look crazy in these pictures but I wanted to show you my bang obsession. They were 15 dollars and they clip on. Cute, right?

AHHH!!!

I screamed so loud I wouldn't be surprised if the cops come knocking on my door. Blake is still in it!! I do love Melinda but she is obviously going to do so well in her career who cares if she wins? I'm so happy for Blake I can't stand it. It was also SO surprising, right? EVERYONE predicted Melinda. It is going to be a GREAT finale!




Jaslene is America's Next Top Model! I didn't like her at first-Britney was my fav, but she is beautiful and seems like she wanted it the most. Its exciting because I LOVE ANTM, but what is interesting/strange is that where are all the Top Model winners now? Has anyone REALLY done anything? At least the Idol winners, and some losers, really do well. Like, they sell millions. What do you think? Is it because models are chosen so young that by the time they are old enough to have kids they are "too old?" So fickle!

BTW: This is SO old skool Jaslene. Its from a "modeling" website.

Dina Lohan-everywhere!

In a city that considers itself fashion forward, I am seeing Dina Lohan clones parading around every neighborhood. NOT a good look!

Home Sweet Home

I'm back in the city and it feels great. How am I EVER going to travel? I miss my mom and I would have liked to stay longer but St. Louis feels like camping out to me. Pathetic, right? I hate being in a car and you have to drive everywhere. All I wanted was a salad, a real salad, the whole weekend. I am so spoiled here with all of my vegetarian options and amazing food that the thought of going to Friday's for lunch made me really depressed. Yuck.

In the defense of the city that has a lot of nice things, I did not grow up there. Still, when I go to Bucks County, PA , where I did grow up, I feel the same way. Like, how do you still live here? Don't you know what else is out there? Don't you want more? I guess not for some people. Like my mom pounds in my head every time I make a rude comment, "That's why there's chocolate and vanilla." I know I don't even know the half of it since I have never been out of the country but my money situation keeps me from it. So I will live vicariously through Melissa for now.

It was so nice seeing my mom though. Sometimes I feel like she is a little disappointed in me. I know she wants me to be a khaki wearing, Lily Pulitzer loving, pre-med student, which was sort-of my plan before. She looked at me SO strange every time I got dressed and kept trying to get me to change. This was my first trip to visit her where I said, No, I look cute. I even told her that I am looking into journalism and how I can still continue to work in healthcare, just not full-time. I could see the disappointment, but I need to stop trying to please everyone and just be me. I have never chosen the "safe" choice and SHE taught me that. So why start now?

On another note, my friend, who would like to remain a secret, has started a blog, in the hopes of it becoming an online mag. Its adorable so check it out :) http://chickmagazine.blogspot.com/

Cross your fingers for Blake tonight! I voted for him 24 times. ;)

Home Sweet Home

I'm back in the city and it feels great. How am I EVER going to travel? I miss my mom and I would have liked to stay longer but St. Louis feels like camping out to me. Pathetic, right? I hate being in a car and you have to drive everywhere. All I wanted was a salad, a real salad, the whole weekend. I am so spoiled here with all of my vegetarian options and amazing food that the thought of going to Friday's for lunch made me really depressed. Yuck.

In the defense of the city that has a lot of nice things, I did not grow up there. Still, when I go to Bucks County, PA , where I did grow up, I feel the same way. Like, how do you still live here? Don't you know what else is out there? Don't you want more? I guess not for some people. Like my mom pounds in my head every time I make a rude comment, "That's why there's chocolate and vanilla." I know I don't even know the half of it since I have never been out of the country but my money situation keeps me from it. So I will live vicariously through Melissa for now.

It was so nice seeing my mom though. Sometimes I feel like she is a little disappointed in me. I know she wants me to be a khaki wearing, Lily Pulitzer loving, pre-med student, which was sort-of my plan before. She looked at me SO strange every time I got dressed and kept trying to get me to change. This was my first trip to visit her where I said, No, I look cute. I even told her that I am looking into journalism and how I can still continue to work in healthcare, just not full-time. I could see the disappointment, but I need to stop trying to please everyone and just be me. I have never chosen the "safe" choice and SHE taught me that. So why start now?

On another note, my friend, who would like to remain a secret, has started a blog, in the hopes of it becoming an online mag. Its adorable so check it out :) http://chickmagazine.blogspot.com/

Cross your fingers for Blake tonight! I voted for him 24 times. ;)

Cheap and chic is making me broke.

What I am loving right now is all of these amazing designers doing lower end lines at places us normal folk can afford. There are so many, we need a calendar! Here are some of my favs:



Patrick Robinson for Target: I think, the best line of GO yet. Check out this cute dress! http://www.target.com/gp/detail.html/ref=sc_pgb_r_2_1_16275561/601-1431641-8127357?ie=UTF8&frombrowse=1&asin=B000OCQDHS

*TIP: Go to the suburbs. I found amazing priced Paul and Joe and Proenza stuff on clearance here in St. Louis visiting my mom.

Bitten by SJP for Steve and Barry's: June 7th (For those of you in NYC, its in the Manhattan Mall, 33rd and 6th.) Read about it here:
http://www.glamour.com/news/coverprofile/articles/2007/05/sarahjessicaparker

Simply Vera by Vera Wang for Kohl's: Fall 2007

Philip Lim for Uniqlo: Does anyone know when? SO exciting!!

I'll keep you updated when I hear more!

R.I.P. Lakisha

Maybe I'm a bad person, but I would have rather Melinda went than Lakisha. I really liked her! She had a great spirit and was a lot of fun. And not to mention that voice!




At least Blake is still there :). Everyone was saying how bad he did but I still thought it was great. I DO wish he would butch it up a little. He's looking a little pretty. Who dresses these kids? Hire a better stylist!




On another note, today I am being positive a la The Secret. Let's see. My laptop came back already. My new ENT figured out what's wrong with me so I'm not crazy. (A deviated septum to the right which is causing my ear canal to be really skinny and it is just FILLED to the max with icky stuff which is causing pain. We are trying different drugs first to get rid of it. Surgery COULD be in the future :(. Honestly, I am in so much pain, that they can do whatever they want if it will make me better.) Also, I am flying tonight to visit my mom in St. Louis. I can't wait! I have a love/hate relationship with flying. I'm really claustrophobic so I freak out a little but once I get used to it, I love it. Last time I flew first class though so I'm spoiled and don't want to fly coach. Wait! That's not positive!

Do you believe in ideas like The Secret? I think its a dangerous thing. Positive thinking is important but it won't take away an illness or poverty. I think it makes people who are sick or poor, for example, feel like it is their fault because they didn't think positively. Not good. I DO think that looking on the bright side of things is really important and I am NOT any good at that. I'm going to try though. Then maybe I won't fail my Physics test today.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

This question totally stresses me out because I was never any good at making a hard decision (total Libra). I know we are all at an age that it "should" be decided but I know a lot of people in their 20s that are having difficulty. I never felt like I was "born" to do something. I was born to do a lot of things! I want to work in health care-from special needs to older people. I want to do some more acting. I want to work for a mag that I really love, like Glamour, and also work with animals. Can you possibly do ALL those things? Do I really have to choose? I want to know how you guys choose. What DID you choose and is there something you wish you had done?

I'm sorry.

I'm totally miserable (no Jay, it is NOT PMS) and if I write anything today I will be a really bad blogger. I'm trying really hard to think of all of those positive things that we wrote about the other day. Today, I have a hate list.

#1. Priceline.com Did you know that you can't change a name on a ticket? Even if your BFF's dad had heart surgery and she can't go. There goes $300.

#2. My Mac is having surgery at the Apple store. He won't be back for 10 days and it costs $305 dollars to fix him.

#3. I have a huge test tm and I've been on the phone with the airline for so long that I don't even remember what the test is on.

OK, maybe its a little PMS. As Monica would say, "Its just one of them days...that a girl goes through. When I'm emty inside.." I'm stopping. I hope your day was better! AI tonight!

"Love me or hate me its still an obsession.."

(Download Lady Sovereign (sp.?) if you don't know this song.)

The front cover of NYC newspapers, well the News and the Post, had a picture of Paris in tears on the cover. #1, isn't there a war going on? Just another way to distract us! Aside from that, what do you think of her 45 day sentence? I feel like its way extreme. Its SO easy to say that she thinks she is above the law but maybe she doesn't.

When she was pulled over for her DUI, her blood alcohol level was just AT the legal limit. When she got her license suspended and was driving anyway she said that she didn't know it was suspended. Her manager testified that he told her that she could drive after 30 days as long as it was work related. Now, I don't like that she was speeding, but don't you usually get a ticket?

They are totally making an example of her. I don't want to say jealousy because it seems so high school but it seems like there was some there. When I heard that one of the jurors said something along the lines of, "Don't impound her car. She probably has 5 others," I got angry. Its not her fault she has money. Yes, she has a great, easy life, but what is that a reason to hate her? She dresses horribly, has terrible blonde hair, and talks like she's 4, but she knows who she is.

I want to know how people like Pete Dogherty (Kate Moss' BF), who gets arrested for coke every other week, or rappers who get caught with guns, avoid jail? 45 days is a long time. Is it fair? Does the punishment fit the crime?

I definitely think there should be some sort of consequence for what she did. How about issuing fines, adding a ton of community service, or taking away her license for a year? I guess she has money and drivers but you can't just throw her in jail because of that. I know that I am anti-authority; I have had the worst experiences with cops, but I really believe they are picking on her. PETA named her the number 1 worst pet owner and I never understood that. I'm a PETA supporter, a strict vegetarian, but why is she such a bad owner? She has 19 pets and a zoo keeper to help her. She LOVES animals and never wears fur. I think it is just because she puts cute outfits on Tinkerbell and brings the on the red carpet. Just because she annoys you, doesn't make her a bad person.

What do you guys think??

Fun Stuff

Shopstyle is one of my fav websites and they have this cool new contest. Design some outfits with lots of creativity and you can win $500 in clothes. At first I thought it was cheesy but its actually really fun. OK, its fun for me.

Chris and Phil? Sad? Its going to get so much harder!!

How do we feel about the Grey's/Addison spinoff preview? I'm not sure. Too much going on!

Thursday Likes and Dislikes

Really, is there anything cuter?? Her name is Caliente (hot in espanol). She's my BFF, Melissa's puppy. She looks like a stuffed animal! It kills me.

The reason why I'm showing her is that I need some happiness at the moment. Animals make me happy always. I wanted to write all about my fav things at the moment but I'm so cynical I need to include things that are driving me crazy also!

Likes:

1. This f-ing adorable little dog.

2. http://www.glennys.com/store/index.aspx The yummiest brand ever. They have these 100 cal brownies that are amazing. AND they have 7 grams of fiber and 4 grams of protein! They are almost healthy (and 75 % organic).

3. My wide leg jeans from http://www.uniqlo.com/us/. They are so comfortable and true to size which is nice.

4. Blake on AI last night! LOVE the dark hair. What do you think?

5. Rice pudding Tasti-d lite that I'm eating right this minute.

6. Denene's dad doing well. Yipee!

7. Dreamgirls on DVD.

8. My new fake bangs. I'll post a pic soon.

9. SJP's new line-so affordable. I can't wait!

10. Seeing Mos Def at an amazing Brooklyn vegetarian place. He was so cute!!

Dislikes:

1. Britney leaving Top Model. It SO should have been Deon.

2. The lack of clothes on girls when its warm. Leggings as pants and flip-flops galore!!

3. MRIs.

4. Waiting.

5. People that should have been SO supportive today, really the only people I have in NYC, just flaking out. Overly sensitive?

6. My messy room. I need Extreme Makeover! Or Trading Spaces.

7. Mos Def being with a really hot girl. Sad.

8. Kate Moss' line being not so amazing.

9. Not having my kitty because I'm too crazy allergic now.

10. Bugs!! I hate summer. (There was a crazy looking one on my floor. Dead, of course.)

Give me your lists!!

I can't think.

I was all set to write today on my obsessions, because there seem to be a lot of them as of late. Maybe tommorrow. Today, at 1:00, I have to have an MRI of my brain to see why I'm still having major migranes/ear pain. I'm being a baby; I don't want to go. I just want to stay at my Starbucks and take some pain killers. I know I can't. I know its important to see what's going on, but it doesn't make it any easier. Its open, so I don't have to be totally drugged, which is good. I also have to have an IV which is fine. I'm not as nervous about the test as I am about what they will find. OK OK, I'm sure nothing but its still scary.

SO much more scary, is that my BFF's dad is having open heart surgery today and it just sucks. I called her to see if she could come to my test with me and she told me they were about to go into surgery. I'm so worried for her! I'm sure he will be fine; Apparently, the prognosis is really good.

Has anyone ever had an MRI of the brain? Are they looking for something they think may be there, or is it just routine with head pain? My doc won't really tell me anything yet because its just too early. I also had a chest X-ray yesterday because sometimes things in your lungs can cause ear pain. Odd. Who knew?

I have called everyone I know and no one can come with me so I'm going by myself. Its just a test and I won't be really drugged so I'm sure I'll be fine alone, I AM an adult now :) I hope you guys have a better day and I'll keep you updated. AND I'll write more postive things later. xo

PS Sorry for the bad spelling!