wow

This woman I know wrote this awesome piece in the NY Times about fake goods and talked about me! Its so flattering but also kind of embarrassing because I admitted to buying knock offs. I don't know..what do you guys think? Do you buy fake bags sometimes? I love fashion and do appreciate the designer but at $3000 for a bag-do they really expect not to have fake ones floating around? She's a great writer. Check it out :)
http://www.nytimes.com/2007/07/06/opinion/06fri4.html?_r=3&oref=slogin&oref=slogin&oref=slogin

Running with Sneakers

I should be picking one of these.....but I'd rather be wearing those!
Think of the least athletic person you know. I'm worse than that. But I'm trying. I'm going to the gym almost every day and although I'm not exactly running I need some serious runner's sneakers for many of my aerobic classes and to help some of my hip issues. I just have a few problems: 1. My feet are small, size 5 at the biggest. Lady Footlocker doesn't even carry shoes that small. 2. They are ugly. I just don't like sneakers.

I know my fellow fashionistas out there have some cute sneaks they work out in! Let me know!

I can't stand it.

How cute is this???

Awesome new mag alert!

A cover from a few issues ago.

I read so many magazines that they can at times get a little repetitive so when a new one grabs my attention I get excited about it. Blueprint, from the Martha Stewart clan, is not so much unlike Domino. It has great decorating ideas and tips from pros. What I am loving about Blueprint is all of the inexpensive DIY stuff that looks like I might actually be able to DIM. There are step by step instructions including places to buy each piece. My favorite thing? The faux headboard that is made out of wallpaper is just so cute. You can even download the template on the website! I also love the cover of the mag. I really believe that there has to be a great cover to attract people to pick it up and read it. Some of my most favorite publications ever, like Jane, are always so good inside but the cover is either totally boring or just not a good representation of the content. Blueprint has a pretty blue color scheme with big lettering and not too much else. The girl laying on the bed has the most enviable auburn hair color and the cutest outfit. The room that she is laying in has such cool things that I had to know how I can get them myself. What I don't like so much is that there are only 6 issues a year (Come on, Martha. You can do better than that!) and the beauty tips are a little obvious. (Messy bun in the summer, anyone?) Any other new publications that I must read?

Congrats to Obama but...

Forty-eight percent of Democratic primary voters say they'd like to see Clinton as the party's nominee, followed by 24 percent for Obama and 11 percent for Edwards (according to CBS and NBC.) She is also endorsed by just about every minority in this country.

"I've seen how Hillary Clinton's experience, commitment, and leadership have made a difference for the LGBT community," said New York City Council Speaker Christine Quinn. "From her efforts to defeat the Federal Marriage Amendment to standing up for our rights in employment practices, there is no one else in this race who will fight harder for the LGBT community. She's ready to be our next president and I look forward to organizing the LGBT community on her behalf."

"Asian Americans and Pacific Islanders have a huge opportunity to make a difference in this election," said Congresswoman Matsui. "Hillary Clinton has been a consistent champion and friend of the AAPI community. She is ready to be our next president and the AAPI community is ready to support her. I look forward to leading the charge to help make Hillary the candidate of choice for AAPI voters."

"Hillary Clinton received today the endorsement of human rights leader and community activist Dolores Huerta, the co-founder and President Emeritus of the United Farm Workers of America. Huerta will serve as co-chair of the campaign's Hispanic outreach efforts. 'Throughout her life Hillary has been a strong leader, working for issues that make a difference in every family's life, like education, health care and good paying jobs," said Huerta. "I believe she is the best qualified candidate and the one that's ready to put our country back on track.'"

"I have had the privilege of working with Hillary Clinton since 1993, and her depth of experience makes her uniquely qualified to be President," Senator Inouye said. "She has been a tireless advocate for our soldiers and veterans, fighting for life-saving body armor when they deploy, and the healthcare and benefits they deserve when they return home."



Oh, and a rich white guy and a porn star.

“I’ve taken the time to familiarize myself with the impressive field of Democratic candidates and am convinced that Hillary Clinton is the most qualified candidate to lead us from her first day in the White House,” Spielberg said on HillaryHub.com. “Hillary is a strong leader and is respected the world over. As president, she will bring America back together, rebuild our prestige abroad and ensure our protection here at home.”

Jenna Jameson: “The Clinton administration was the best years for the adult industry and I wish that Clinton would run again. I would love to have him back in office. I would love to have Al Gore in office. When Republicans are in office, the problem is, a lot of times they try to put their crosshairs on the adult industry, to make a point.”

Under endorsements on Obama's site, it says "people of faith," "students," "women," and "more coming soon." Other than some religious leaders, there really aren't very many great quotes from important people. I promise, I looked! I think its celebrity cool to endorse him but it won't last.

Are you ready?

Its that time again. I get super excited about upcoming fall fashions. I am ready to retire the gladiator sandals and summer colored frocks for boots (ankle and knee-high), chunky knits and lots and lots of leg wear. As I was reading all the mags this weekend I was getting excited but also a little nervous. The seasons of late have been shapeless and forgiving and this upcoming season is much more body conscious. Time to get back to the gym!

At least Harper's Bazzar is saying that there is still volume-its just more controlled.

Update

OK, its not the best picture. Can you see her nails??

A better update.

Fake Nails

Like many of you, I have a few serious fashion pet-peeves: leggings as pants, hair clips (or "animal" clips), and fake nails. Don't get me wrong, I did the 90's look complete with the bright colored, long "tips" with some sort of airbrush palm tree or something. I even used to get my ring finger nails pierced with a little charms hanging from them! Scary. This is 2007 and I really don't want the fake nail look to come back. Did anyone see Hillary Duff on the Today show this morning? It was a great performance (I love her) and her dress was amazing and her hair color is a shade of brown I would die for. I even like her ghetto fab earrings that she has been wearing lately. I did not like her long fake nails with gold tips. It was just WAY too much. Well, even by themselves I would hate them. I'll try to get a picture later if you missed it.

What to wear?

We have talked about this before: dressing for guys/girls. To get right to the point, I have a slight crush and its fun because I am actually caring about what I wear. He's moving back to LA soon so I don't really have a chance but aside from that I am planning my outfits. I know that guys love me in high waisted, more menswear-ish stuff so I'll probably be rocking that tomorrow. I was wondering: what's your go-to come-hither look?

Rescue Me

I'm having nasal surgery in less than a month (fun!) and I am looking to buy/rent some DVDs to watch in bed. I'm into TV shows at the moment but I watch so many already. Rescue Me was on sale and that is supposed to be good so I'm saving that. Does anyone have any ideas? I have never seen Lost, but it doesn't seem that interesting. Maybe I would like it. I have seen all of Grey's, Ugly Betty, House, 24, Queer as Folk, ext. So, any other ideas? Anything that you can't wait to run home and watch?

DI-Myself?

I can put an outfit together like nobody's business, but when it comes to actually sewing, I take my fallen off buttons and too long pants to the cleaners across the street. Its kind of embarrassing. So, when my dad said he sent me a Hilary '08 T-shirt I was super excited and planning a cute outfit with it. That's when I opened the box and saw how huge it is-all XL of it. (Thanks Dad. Trying to tell me something?)

My question is, does anyone know an easy DIY way to turn this shirt into something actually cute? Quickly, before I belt it and wear is super 80's!

My love.

You guys know how obsessed with Mika I am. I'm really not a fanatical person but I can't help it in this case. On Friday, "Join Mika after his concert at The Nokia Theater. The fun continues at The Theaters at 45 Bleecker, 45 Bleecker Street at Lafayette Street, 1 block above Houston." LIFEbeat The Music Industry Fights AIDS is throwing the bash and its only $10! Not only do you get to see Mika,the admission goes to LIFEbeat (not to mention free martinis all night.) Go to http://www.lifebeat.org/news.cfm/news/61 for tickets.

If you'll be in NYC, I'll see you there!

I AM a plastic bag.

The $15 Anya Hindmarch bag has the world going crazy. Its a really great idea. I take a bag to the store with me so I don't waste plastic ones and hopefully more people will. BUT don't get it just because its super trendy right now. On my way to Pilates, I saw a girl using the bag as a purse AND also carrying a real plastic bag full of stuff. No words.

Don't believe everything you read.

Its weird that we were talking about it because I got an email yesterday from textinthecity.com about online dating. I'm not sure I'm agreeing with..well, any of it. Or maybe I'm in denial. What do you think?

1. Don't waste time on the phone or online with your new cyber guy. Meet him as soon as possible in person to see if there is chemistry.
2. Narrow your search to exactly what you are looking for. Do not compromise when someone is showing interest that doesn't match your dating requirements. In the end it will be a waste of time.
3. Immediately ask the guy you are interested in, to send additional pictures of himself, so can make sure the ones he posted online matches the other pictures you have requested.
4. When you finally meet your cyber crush, if there is not any chemistry, move on. Don't be afraid to be honest. It's much worse in the end to waste time or lead someone on.

Dating Diary Chapter 3: Greg

I hope you guys had a great weekend. Its scary when you don't even remember what you did. That's what happens when you work through it! I wanted to keep you updated on the whole online dating thing. I took some great advice (thanks!) and didn't bother emailing anyone I "graded" lower than a 7.

The one that scored the highest was Greg (the vegan). I sent him a short-and-sweet email back (I tend to go on..and on) and we have been emailing every other day since. So far, he hasn't said anything that made me cringe, i.e.. "aiight." He's actually been really sweet and funny. About the 4th email, he mentioned his ex so I think that's actually a good sign. It makes me feel like we are getting past small talk. He has also mentioned a band that he is seeing at this bar in my old neighborhood so I'm sensing a possible date, which is awesome but horrifying also. I'm going to seriously need your help when that time comes!

At least I will have some stuff to wear. I bought so much of Sarah Jessica Parker's "Bitten" line. It is all soooo cute! The prices make H&M look expensive and the quality is even better. RUN to Steve and Barry's! I'll post pictures as soon as I can. :)

I feel sick.

I'm so mad that Paris has been dragged back to jail I can't even speak. I'm not her #1 fan, but it still isn't right. This guy, the sheriff who let her out, said it perfectly:

"The problem here is that there is a medical issue and it isn't wise to keep a person in jail with her problem over an extended period of time and let the problem get worse. In my opinion, justice is being served by the decision to have her serve her time at home. She would still be in the county jail if it were not for the medical advice. My message to those who don't like celebrities is that punishing celebrities more than the average American is not justice."

Does this work?

I'm loving the Kylie for H&M turban but now sure how to rock it for...work. Should I put my bangs on? Or do I just look crazy?

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday Ryanne!!

Lo Siento.

One of my WORST phobias is bugs. I know most people don't like them, but for me, its a phobia. Sometimes I can't sleep. Crazy, right? A tad. Well, we have a bug problem in the apartment and I have lost, LOST, my mind. Breathe. I have done nothing but clean since the exterminator came so I haven't been online at all. I'm back-a little :). I miss posting and Glamour blogs. There's SO much to discuss. First, the unavoidable.

I still can't believe Paris is in jail. I have already posted that I think its totally extreme but now I'm just sad for her. I know, I know, its only 24 days but jail is jail and I would FREAK out. Did anyone watch the MTV Movie Awards? What Sarah Silverman said was so rude and insensitive. I get that she is supposed to be a comedienne and they can be rude but she totally kicked her when she was already down. If you didn't see it, she said something like, "To make Paris more comfortable in jail, they painted the bars to look like penis'. I'm just concerned she will crack a tooth." It makes me nauseated. I don't get why everyone thinks she's this crazy whore anyway? So she had a sex tape. Some horrible, gross, guy leaked it but no one cares about that. Drives me crazy!

Did you watch the Democratic Debates? What did you think?

I think Obama did a good job but I think he showed a lack of confidence. I very much enjoy this quote, (not from the Debates)
"Too often, the issue of LGBT rights is exploited by those seeking to divide us. But at its core, this issue is about who we are as Americans. It's about whether this nation is going to live up to its founding promise of equality by treating all its citizens with dignity and respect."
"It's time to turn the page on the bitterness and bigotry that fill so much of today's LGBT rights debate. The rights of all Americans should be protected -- whether it's at work or anyplace else. "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" needs to be repealed because patriotism and a sense of duty should be the key tests for military service, not sexual orientation. Civil unions should give gay couples full rights. And those who commit hate crimes should be punished no matter whether those crimes are committed on account of race, religion, gender identity, or sexual orientation."
"This Pride Month, let's make our founding promise of equality a reality for every American."
My main problem with him is his somewhat lack of experience and lack of money raised. Seeing who raised what kind of money is important to see what kind of backing they have. We NEED a democrat pres so its more important to me that one wins, like it or not.

Hillary disappointed me. I actually sent an email to her camp. I disliked that she defended what Edwards called, Bush's "Bumper Sticker" agenda. Edwards is SO right and I was sad that she defended it. Still, she's winning in the race by a landslide.

Round 2 goes to Edwards. He was cute, funny, and real. His honest apology for voting for the war touched me. He praised Obama for being against the war before he was. That showed a lot of courage. He also seemed very intelligent on Iran and extremely confident.

The other guys did fine but, let's be honest here, they aren't REALLY in the race. OK, feedback ladies and gentlemen!

Dating Diary Chapter 2: The Contenders

Sorry I have been a little MIA-been under the weather. No, not due to Blake's loss ;) Did you see him on Regis? *sigh

The online dating is coming along. I have taken into account all of the awesome things you guys have said and I need your help again. Here are 6 of the guys who sent me either an e-mail or a "wink:"

1. Joea1980:
Is he cute?? I think. It isn't the most clear picture.
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: nope, NYC
Is he old?: 26 (perfect)
But what does he do? Jazz musician
What are his positives? He's artistic and loves Stephen Colbert.
OK OK, give me the bad things: He likes to try new food. (I eat, like, 4 things and I'm OK with that.) He wants to be a teacher. (Maybe I'm a bad person but that means no money-sorry! It wouldn't be why I don't go out with him though.)He doesn;t like mainstream things. (What, no Hanna Montana??)
Overal score?? 6

2. Savagelamb
Is he cute?? Not really. I'm not into the really long hair thing.
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: nope, NYC
Is he old?: 31 (ok..)
But what does he do? HIV Prevention Theatre (I have no idea what it is but it sounds cool.)
What are his positives? See above, and loves working with children.
OK OK, give me the bad things: He's 5'5". He uses words like "aiight." And he claims to be wishy-washy (meaning I will walk all over him).
Overal score?? 3

3. NYCartist
Is he cute?? I can't see his face-bad thing?
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: nope, NYC
Is he old?: 26
But what does he do? Segment producer.
What are his positives? writer, 6'3". He wants someone who will keep him on his toes.
OK OK, give me the bad things: Direct quote: "I'm not one for the superficial, and thus, probably won't be into the kind of woman who takes 3 hours to get ready for brunch on a Sunday afternoon." And, he's a Taurus.
Overal score?? 6

4. Gevawo
Is he cute?? I think so.
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: Brooklyn
Is he old?: 24
But what does he do? student, working toward PhD in Philosophy
What are his positives? Vegan! seems really low-key
OK OK, give me the bad things: in a band, Brookyln is also kind of far, do I feel like being with another student?
Overal score?? 8

5. Eyes
Is he cute?? can't see his face
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: worse, Ohio
Is he old?: 31
But what does he do? "law"
What are his positives? great body, athletic, real job
OK OK, give me the bad things: um..Ohio? and he wants a girl who enjoys physical sports
Overal score?? 4

6. woogymodel
Is he cute?? no
Please tell me he does not live in Jersey City: he does!
Is he old?: 36
But what does he do? programmer
What are his positives? passionate about gun control and womens' rights.
OK OK, give me the bad things: see all of the above
Overal score?? 2

I admit defeat.

Congrats to Jordin. I'm still buying this shirt.
http://www.cafepress.com/blakergirls

I heard a rumor...

that Britney will "preform" on American Idol tonight. What do you think? Do you care? Go Blake!!

Please join us.

OK, I know we have a while until the election, but I'm ready to start. This is the most important part of our lives right now and everyone needs to get involved. I don't have any money and I am only one person but we can't give up. After the Bush "win" I was insanely depressed thinking that I, including most people I knew, didn't matter. I am doing everything I can to not feel that way.

I can't give a lot of money but anything helps. I also really believe that word of mouth is the most important thing. People actually told me that they thought of me as they voted last election. There is nothing more flattering than that.

Please read what you can about Hillary. Trust me, she is great. I can go into Planned Parenthood tonight, say that I don't have any money, and get free birth control. When I got into the city, that is exactly what I did. She wants to get us out of Iraq ASAP (thank god), get gay people the rights they deserve, and let women keep their reproductive rights. Is she perfect? No, but she's the best we've got. She isn't totally liberal enough for me, but she will get better when she gets into office; she just needs some conservative vote.

What about Obama, you ask? Sure he's a GREAT looking guy. So is John Edwards. The both have great values and ideas. They would both make great presidents but all of these great candidates are going to cancel each other out and a Republican will win again. Its so frustrating! I have a really soft spot in my heart for Gore but its the same deal.

Please do what you can. Read today. Talk tomorrow. Vote Hillary 2008.

Reason #5,482 that I love NY.

The Fresh Direct Pear

SUCH good food-to my door at 10:30 pm! Unfortunately, this cute guy didn't come.

Dating Diary Chapter 1: The Profile

Couldn't look less like me..

As a serial monogamous, I really have no idea how to date. I don't know if I have ever been out on a date with a stranger. Hmm..the only one I can think of was the start of my last long relationship and that was on Drag Queen Bingo Night. I'm talking about the kind of date that involves a fancy restaurant with food I don't really want to eat and awkward small talk. Ugh. I do, however, think that it is important to date lots of people, even just to meet and become friends. That being said, it sucks. If I didn't care, I would sit home, order pizza, and watch episode after episode of 24. I will never meet anyone like that! My dream of locking eyes with a cute 20 to 30-something while ordering a sugar-free vanilla soy Chai is slowly vanishing.

To make a long story short, I joined a liberal dating website. (I thought about what was MOST important to me, and similar morals are it-IE no Bush lovers!) It is so scary because these people are total strangers! Even if I follow all of the rules, like going out in a public place, how do I know when it is safe to be alone? How I know when this person is safe at all? Do these things REALLY work?

OK, I am getting ahead of myself. First, I made a profile. Here are some things I included (that are honest):

1. I love to read and write.
2. I am 5'4."
3. I live in NYC.
4. I am a Libra.
5. I am a vegetarian.
6. I go to school.

Here are some things I didn't say (but are honest):

1. I can take 3 hours to get ready.
2. Although I love to read, I mostly read chic lit, crime novels, or Glamour.
3. I am 5'3 1/2."
4. I will complain every time I smell meat.
5. I go to school and have at least 2 other jobs.
6. Did I mention I was a little high maintenance?
7. I don't do outdoors.
8. I have issues with Taurus'.
9. I listen to Hilary Duff and watch Saved by the Bell every morning.
10. I want to see other countries but traveling scares me.

I wouldn't even want to date me! What would your profile look like? I already have 3 "winks!"

To bang or not to bang...'tis the question.

Me, without bangs..
and with bangs.









I look crazy in these pictures but I wanted to show you my bang obsession. They were 15 dollars and they clip on. Cute, right?

AHHH!!!

I screamed so loud I wouldn't be surprised if the cops come knocking on my door. Blake is still in it!! I do love Melinda but she is obviously going to do so well in her career who cares if she wins? I'm so happy for Blake I can't stand it. It was also SO surprising, right? EVERYONE predicted Melinda. It is going to be a GREAT finale!




Jaslene is America's Next Top Model! I didn't like her at first-Britney was my fav, but she is beautiful and seems like she wanted it the most. Its exciting because I LOVE ANTM, but what is interesting/strange is that where are all the Top Model winners now? Has anyone REALLY done anything? At least the Idol winners, and some losers, really do well. Like, they sell millions. What do you think? Is it because models are chosen so young that by the time they are old enough to have kids they are "too old?" So fickle!

BTW: This is SO old skool Jaslene. Its from a "modeling" website.

Dina Lohan-everywhere!

In a city that considers itself fashion forward, I am seeing Dina Lohan clones parading around every neighborhood. NOT a good look!

Home Sweet Home

I'm back in the city and it feels great. How am I EVER going to travel? I miss my mom and I would have liked to stay longer but St. Louis feels like camping out to me. Pathetic, right? I hate being in a car and you have to drive everywhere. All I wanted was a salad, a real salad, the whole weekend. I am so spoiled here with all of my vegetarian options and amazing food that the thought of going to Friday's for lunch made me really depressed. Yuck.

In the defense of the city that has a lot of nice things, I did not grow up there. Still, when I go to Bucks County, PA , where I did grow up, I feel the same way. Like, how do you still live here? Don't you know what else is out there? Don't you want more? I guess not for some people. Like my mom pounds in my head every time I make a rude comment, "That's why there's chocolate and vanilla." I know I don't even know the half of it since I have never been out of the country but my money situation keeps me from it. So I will live vicariously through Melissa for now.

It was so nice seeing my mom though. Sometimes I feel like she is a little disappointed in me. I know she wants me to be a khaki wearing, Lily Pulitzer loving, pre-med student, which was sort-of my plan before. She looked at me SO strange every time I got dressed and kept trying to get me to change. This was my first trip to visit her where I said, No, I look cute. I even told her that I am looking into journalism and how I can still continue to work in healthcare, just not full-time. I could see the disappointment, but I need to stop trying to please everyone and just be me. I have never chosen the "safe" choice and SHE taught me that. So why start now?

On another note, my friend, who would like to remain a secret, has started a blog, in the hopes of it becoming an online mag. Its adorable so check it out :) http://chickmagazine.blogspot.com/

Cross your fingers for Blake tonight! I voted for him 24 times. ;)

Home Sweet Home

I'm back in the city and it feels great. How am I EVER going to travel? I miss my mom and I would have liked to stay longer but St. Louis feels like camping out to me. Pathetic, right? I hate being in a car and you have to drive everywhere. All I wanted was a salad, a real salad, the whole weekend. I am so spoiled here with all of my vegetarian options and amazing food that the thought of going to Friday's for lunch made me really depressed. Yuck.

In the defense of the city that has a lot of nice things, I did not grow up there. Still, when I go to Bucks County, PA , where I did grow up, I feel the same way. Like, how do you still live here? Don't you know what else is out there? Don't you want more? I guess not for some people. Like my mom pounds in my head every time I make a rude comment, "That's why there's chocolate and vanilla." I know I don't even know the half of it since I have never been out of the country but my money situation keeps me from it. So I will live vicariously through Melissa for now.

It was so nice seeing my mom though. Sometimes I feel like she is a little disappointed in me. I know she wants me to be a khaki wearing, Lily Pulitzer loving, pre-med student, which was sort-of my plan before. She looked at me SO strange every time I got dressed and kept trying to get me to change. This was my first trip to visit her where I said, No, I look cute. I even told her that I am looking into journalism and how I can still continue to work in healthcare, just not full-time. I could see the disappointment, but I need to stop trying to please everyone and just be me. I have never chosen the "safe" choice and SHE taught me that. So why start now?

On another note, my friend, who would like to remain a secret, has started a blog, in the hopes of it becoming an online mag. Its adorable so check it out :) http://chickmagazine.blogspot.com/

Cross your fingers for Blake tonight! I voted for him 24 times. ;)

Cheap and chic is making me broke.

What I am loving right now is all of these amazing designers doing lower end lines at places us normal folk can afford. There are so many, we need a calendar! Here are some of my favs:



Patrick Robinson for Target: I think, the best line of GO yet. Check out this cute dress! http://www.target.com/gp/detail.html/ref=sc_pgb_r_2_1_16275561/601-1431641-8127357?ie=UTF8&frombrowse=1&asin=B000OCQDHS

*TIP: Go to the suburbs. I found amazing priced Paul and Joe and Proenza stuff on clearance here in St. Louis visiting my mom.

Bitten by SJP for Steve and Barry's: June 7th (For those of you in NYC, its in the Manhattan Mall, 33rd and 6th.) Read about it here:
http://www.glamour.com/news/coverprofile/articles/2007/05/sarahjessicaparker

Simply Vera by Vera Wang for Kohl's: Fall 2007

Philip Lim for Uniqlo: Does anyone know when? SO exciting!!

I'll keep you updated when I hear more!

R.I.P. Lakisha

Maybe I'm a bad person, but I would have rather Melinda went than Lakisha. I really liked her! She had a great spirit and was a lot of fun. And not to mention that voice!




At least Blake is still there :). Everyone was saying how bad he did but I still thought it was great. I DO wish he would butch it up a little. He's looking a little pretty. Who dresses these kids? Hire a better stylist!




On another note, today I am being positive a la The Secret. Let's see. My laptop came back already. My new ENT figured out what's wrong with me so I'm not crazy. (A deviated septum to the right which is causing my ear canal to be really skinny and it is just FILLED to the max with icky stuff which is causing pain. We are trying different drugs first to get rid of it. Surgery COULD be in the future :(. Honestly, I am in so much pain, that they can do whatever they want if it will make me better.) Also, I am flying tonight to visit my mom in St. Louis. I can't wait! I have a love/hate relationship with flying. I'm really claustrophobic so I freak out a little but once I get used to it, I love it. Last time I flew first class though so I'm spoiled and don't want to fly coach. Wait! That's not positive!

Do you believe in ideas like The Secret? I think its a dangerous thing. Positive thinking is important but it won't take away an illness or poverty. I think it makes people who are sick or poor, for example, feel like it is their fault because they didn't think positively. Not good. I DO think that looking on the bright side of things is really important and I am NOT any good at that. I'm going to try though. Then maybe I won't fail my Physics test today.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

This question totally stresses me out because I was never any good at making a hard decision (total Libra). I know we are all at an age that it "should" be decided but I know a lot of people in their 20s that are having difficulty. I never felt like I was "born" to do something. I was born to do a lot of things! I want to work in health care-from special needs to older people. I want to do some more acting. I want to work for a mag that I really love, like Glamour, and also work with animals. Can you possibly do ALL those things? Do I really have to choose? I want to know how you guys choose. What DID you choose and is there something you wish you had done?

I'm sorry.

I'm totally miserable (no Jay, it is NOT PMS) and if I write anything today I will be a really bad blogger. I'm trying really hard to think of all of those positive things that we wrote about the other day. Today, I have a hate list.

#1. Priceline.com Did you know that you can't change a name on a ticket? Even if your BFF's dad had heart surgery and she can't go. There goes $300.

#2. My Mac is having surgery at the Apple store. He won't be back for 10 days and it costs $305 dollars to fix him.

#3. I have a huge test tm and I've been on the phone with the airline for so long that I don't even remember what the test is on.

OK, maybe its a little PMS. As Monica would say, "Its just one of them days...that a girl goes through. When I'm emty inside.." I'm stopping. I hope your day was better! AI tonight!

"Love me or hate me its still an obsession.."

(Download Lady Sovereign (sp.?) if you don't know this song.)

The front cover of NYC newspapers, well the News and the Post, had a picture of Paris in tears on the cover. #1, isn't there a war going on? Just another way to distract us! Aside from that, what do you think of her 45 day sentence? I feel like its way extreme. Its SO easy to say that she thinks she is above the law but maybe she doesn't.

When she was pulled over for her DUI, her blood alcohol level was just AT the legal limit. When she got her license suspended and was driving anyway she said that she didn't know it was suspended. Her manager testified that he told her that she could drive after 30 days as long as it was work related. Now, I don't like that she was speeding, but don't you usually get a ticket?

They are totally making an example of her. I don't want to say jealousy because it seems so high school but it seems like there was some there. When I heard that one of the jurors said something along the lines of, "Don't impound her car. She probably has 5 others," I got angry. Its not her fault she has money. Yes, she has a great, easy life, but what is that a reason to hate her? She dresses horribly, has terrible blonde hair, and talks like she's 4, but she knows who she is.

I want to know how people like Pete Dogherty (Kate Moss' BF), who gets arrested for coke every other week, or rappers who get caught with guns, avoid jail? 45 days is a long time. Is it fair? Does the punishment fit the crime?

I definitely think there should be some sort of consequence for what she did. How about issuing fines, adding a ton of community service, or taking away her license for a year? I guess she has money and drivers but you can't just throw her in jail because of that. I know that I am anti-authority; I have had the worst experiences with cops, but I really believe they are picking on her. PETA named her the number 1 worst pet owner and I never understood that. I'm a PETA supporter, a strict vegetarian, but why is she such a bad owner? She has 19 pets and a zoo keeper to help her. She LOVES animals and never wears fur. I think it is just because she puts cute outfits on Tinkerbell and brings the on the red carpet. Just because she annoys you, doesn't make her a bad person.

What do you guys think??

Fun Stuff

Shopstyle is one of my fav websites and they have this cool new contest. Design some outfits with lots of creativity and you can win $500 in clothes. At first I thought it was cheesy but its actually really fun. OK, its fun for me.

Chris and Phil? Sad? Its going to get so much harder!!

How do we feel about the Grey's/Addison spinoff preview? I'm not sure. Too much going on!

Thursday Likes and Dislikes

Really, is there anything cuter?? Her name is Caliente (hot in espanol). She's my BFF, Melissa's puppy. She looks like a stuffed animal! It kills me.

The reason why I'm showing her is that I need some happiness at the moment. Animals make me happy always. I wanted to write all about my fav things at the moment but I'm so cynical I need to include things that are driving me crazy also!

Likes:

1. This f-ing adorable little dog.

2. http://www.glennys.com/store/index.aspx The yummiest brand ever. They have these 100 cal brownies that are amazing. AND they have 7 grams of fiber and 4 grams of protein! They are almost healthy (and 75 % organic).

3. My wide leg jeans from http://www.uniqlo.com/us/. They are so comfortable and true to size which is nice.

4. Blake on AI last night! LOVE the dark hair. What do you think?

5. Rice pudding Tasti-d lite that I'm eating right this minute.

6. Denene's dad doing well. Yipee!

7. Dreamgirls on DVD.

8. My new fake bangs. I'll post a pic soon.

9. SJP's new line-so affordable. I can't wait!

10. Seeing Mos Def at an amazing Brooklyn vegetarian place. He was so cute!!

Dislikes:

1. Britney leaving Top Model. It SO should have been Deon.

2. The lack of clothes on girls when its warm. Leggings as pants and flip-flops galore!!

3. MRIs.

4. Waiting.

5. People that should have been SO supportive today, really the only people I have in NYC, just flaking out. Overly sensitive?

6. My messy room. I need Extreme Makeover! Or Trading Spaces.

7. Mos Def being with a really hot girl. Sad.

8. Kate Moss' line being not so amazing.

9. Not having my kitty because I'm too crazy allergic now.

10. Bugs!! I hate summer. (There was a crazy looking one on my floor. Dead, of course.)

Give me your lists!!

I can't think.

I was all set to write today on my obsessions, because there seem to be a lot of them as of late. Maybe tommorrow. Today, at 1:00, I have to have an MRI of my brain to see why I'm still having major migranes/ear pain. I'm being a baby; I don't want to go. I just want to stay at my Starbucks and take some pain killers. I know I can't. I know its important to see what's going on, but it doesn't make it any easier. Its open, so I don't have to be totally drugged, which is good. I also have to have an IV which is fine. I'm not as nervous about the test as I am about what they will find. OK OK, I'm sure nothing but its still scary.

SO much more scary, is that my BFF's dad is having open heart surgery today and it just sucks. I called her to see if she could come to my test with me and she told me they were about to go into surgery. I'm so worried for her! I'm sure he will be fine; Apparently, the prognosis is really good.

Has anyone ever had an MRI of the brain? Are they looking for something they think may be there, or is it just routine with head pain? My doc won't really tell me anything yet because its just too early. I also had a chest X-ray yesterday because sometimes things in your lungs can cause ear pain. Odd. Who knew?

I have called everyone I know and no one can come with me so I'm going by myself. Its just a test and I won't be really drugged so I'm sure I'll be fine alone, I AM an adult now :) I hope you guys have a better day and I'll keep you updated. AND I'll write more postive things later. xo

PS Sorry for the bad spelling!

You look amazing, but..

Adore her.









Has anyone ever said that to you? Maybe I am overly sensitive or I work in a weight-obsessed field, but it really drives me crazy when people comment on other people's weight. I don't even think a positive comment is acceptable. What's the point? If you are telling someone they lost weight and they look great, they could have an eating disorder and you don't even know it. They could take that comment, tell themselves that since they are not eating everyone thinks they look great and they should just stay that way. Or they could get worse. Instead of commenting on someone's weigh, say how much you love the outfit or a new hairstyle. It sounds so cliche but it really works.

I don't know about you guys, but when someone comments on my weight, I feel really uncomfortable and I tend not to forget it, even if its positive. Like, in high school I had this friend who was a little bigger than me but her sister was a 00 and I liked her pants, and she said, "They would actually fit you, but not your hips." That's one of the only things I remember about that friendship, which is embarrassing, but true. OR the time when a patient at work said to me, "I don't want you to take this the wrong way like I'm hitting on you or anything because I'm straight, but I never noticed how cute your body is. You are PACKING back there!" Attention: this is NOT a compliment. You may think fuller butts are nice but you do not need to comment on them. OK, the WORST is when a guy I was seeing called me...thick. It wasn't that long ago so its very fresh. I got obsessed with trying to defend myself. I became a girl that I don't like.
Me: But I go to the gym!
Him: You do?
Me: I wear a size 2!
Him: Yeah, you're thin but curvy, like, with a butt.
Me (smiling): OK, that's fine. I want some curves.
Him: Yeah, but you really shouldn't gain any weight. You don't want it to get bigger, you know?

I guess this is acceptable and even a compliment in his Puerto Rican culture which is one of the many reasons why I am obsessed with it. But don't you want a guy/girl to lie and say you are too skinny and should gain weight? Even if its not true? I'm most likely just being a 22 year old girl and I'll get over it. That still doesn't excuse my grand-mom telling me that my pants are too tight and I'm not "skinny mini" any more.

It sounds stuck up, bitchy, immature, but I'm trying to be honest here. What has the world come to when a size 2 is considered to have "a little bit of fat all over?" (Me, according to a trainer at the gym.) I've seen so many celebrities in real life and the ones that you think are "curvy" are actually really normal. Will I grow out of this? My roommate is 28 and says that it does get easier as you get older. I can't wait!

OMG, you guuuys!

She's adorable.

I can't wait for the pink clothes, the crazy dog, the hysterical dialogue, to music! I love when I told my BFF Melissa, she screamed on the phone because it really is that exciting. Oh yeah, Legally Blonde is now on Broadway. I've been hearing really good things about it through the Broadway grapevine so you must check it out.

What's buggin' me.

Prada Spring 2007: fabulous, of course, but sexy?










What's buggin' me today is boys. The whowhatweardaily.com email today got me thinking. It was about a guy's opinion on girl's clothing. It isn't something I usually care about but this is the first time I've been single in a long, really long, time. I find myself contemplating the most odd things. All of a sudden I care about what people think. OK, let me rephrase that; I care about what someone I am attracted to thinks. Guys don't usually get the way I dress. I feel like guys, or girls, want to see a girl in a denim mini, ski high heels, and a tube top. *Shudder* Then there's me, in my tent dress, gladiator wedges, and brown Prada-esque head wrap (not to mention faux bangs.) Adorable, but not exactly hot. Maybe I should dye my hair platinum, put in hot rollers, and break out some 90's crop-tops. Been there, done that. As my girl Katherine Mcfee says, "I'm over it."
I matured, physically, really young so I have always been aware of my body. Having your period and C cups by the 4th grade can make you do some crazy things. I worse the lowest jeans and the smallest shirts and ALWAYS was with someone. Not only is that NOT in style, I'm not interested in showing my body off anymore. My male coworker always tells me, "You can't even see a waist in that thing!" I'm like, I know! That's the point! So my question is, girls and boys out there, does it even matter? Am I going to be single forever unless I show some cleavage?
Getting back to the email, the guy hated every single outfit and I loved all of them. I DID meet a cute guy on the train though. He had cute shoes which he told me were from Payless! Of course, he's a drag queen so it really doesn't solve my problem. Still, check him out at www.thepixieshow.com. So..what do you think? Do the clothes matter?

Not very nice.

I cannot believe they did that to Jordin! So, no one goes home. I get that it was a positive episode so they didn't want to vote anyone off but they didn't have to do that to her. I thought it was going to be corny but tonight's episode was really good. They really made me believe that the little bit of money I could donate actually would make a difference. If you can, give some money!

Libra + Taurus= 2gether 4 ever?

The title is so old school, I know. I'm feeling nostalgic. Its working with my "Bayside High" t-shirt and bright green tapered pants.

I haven't dated A LOT of people but I have had my fair share of long relationships. I was wondering, do you guys believe in "signs?" There isn't a lot I DO believe in, except science. Still, sometimes I can't help but think that I am SUCH a Libra. I cannot make a hard decision. I can't even choose my major. I really do look at both sides of things; I'm totally fair. More than anything, I am ALWAYS attracted to Taurus'. It drives me crazy! Every big relationship I have had has been with a Taurus. Anyone else I dated that wasn't a Taurus, I really wasn't that into. Crazy, right? I KNOW I'm not doing it on purpose. I never know what someone is until we really get to know each other. I was thinking about it more today because I saw a guy that I have had a crush on for a while. He could not be a worse crush. He's much older. We really have nothing in common, but something is there that I can't explain. Oh yeah, and the big thing is that he's getting married May 27th. I know, I know, I would never ever actually be with him in this situation; Its just a crush. I think what is worse is that they are getting married in the spot that I dream about getting married in-a garden in Central Park. (Of course.) I had to listen to him tell people alllll the details today over and over. It was so depressing. Why do we want want we can't have? So, we were talking about life like we usually do and he said something about being a Taurus and I was like, no way! They are so stubborn and the relationship always ends badly but I can't help being attracted. Do you guys notice things like this? I googled it and this is what I found. What do you think?

"In some instances, this combination can be the unification of two halves of a whole. In essence, Libra and Taurus are thought of as being karmic-ally linked. Both are looking for security in a relationship and they do share a love of art, poetry and culture. This is a partnership that may begin slowly since, on the surface, they might have few common interests. Still, once they come to understand each other, they may learn they have much more in common than was initially apparent. Both partners appreciate fine dining, the theater, music and collecting art. Pleasure...physical and aesthetic...is a premium for Libra and Taurus alike. Natives of both these Signs love to woo and be wooed. Thus, courtship will be a necessary component of any romantic union and since both have this need, they fit well together. The Taurus partner is sure to appreciate Libra's charm and if stubborn Taurus fails to get his or her way, then the Libra partner will be able to smooth things over and keep the peace. In addition, Libra will appreciate the luxuries that sensual Taurus provides. Furthermore, the Libra partner can help Taurus to see different sides of a given situation and the Taurus native will be able to assist Libra in overcoming the notorious indecision associated with this Zodiac Sign." -www. novarienna.com

And no,

I haven't called the banker. I will, I swear.

Chickens, Stalkers, and Loner-ness.

Make your own KFC sign at peta2.com

I promise; I'm not going to preach. Of course I wish everyone would stop eating meat but I would never say that because it isn't (really) any of my business. KFC is one of those corporations that go beyond..OK i'll stop. If you are interested, go to the Peta website. You can add words to this billboard like I did. Its silly, but also read about the things that KFC does to animals.

Switching gears, maybe its a little to early to call him a stalker but a weird thing happened to me today and I don't really know what to think. I just joined a new bank and I was really excited about it. Like many college students, especially here in NYC, I'm really tight on cash but I got my tax return, paid off some bills, and was feeling very adult and responsible. When I went to the bank the other day, the manager really helped me out with my account. He cleared some checks for me that wouldn't have been cleared yet and some other little things, nothing huge. So today, I went back in because I didn't get my mac card (wait, that's so PA, I meant my ATM card) and I needed to make a deposit. The same manager was there so he helped me out. OK, get this: A few hours later, he called my cell and asked me out. Now, I didn't give him my number so he obviously got it from the bank records. I KNOW he's not aloud to do that. He's nice enough; He's young and isn't creepy or anything but still. It's a little strange. He caught me totally off guard so I didn't really say no exactly, which I should have, but I did tell him I was really busy. He called again a few hours later and left a message. I didn't call back but I was walking home thinking, "He knows my address". Because of that, I need to call him back and nip this in the bud. What do I say? I'll probably play the gay card so he's not offended. Am I overreacting thinking its a little creepy? What would you guys do?

So, he's a nice enough guy, why don't I just go out with him? Well, I'm in a loner stage. I have been in a relationship since I was 12 years old and I'm just over it at the moment. I want to go to the gym, read mags all day at B & N, and watch DVR 'till I pass out. I work all the time, while trying to focus on my dreams. Have you guys ever been in this stage? Its normal, right? My grand-mom tells people that I don't have a social life. Maybe I don't have the BIGGEST one right now but I'm OK with that. Like, really OK. I'm going to a party Sunday night so I'm not CRAZY anti-social ;) I'm watching Queer as Folk reruns and getting ready for bed. Have a great weekend!!

I'm pathetic.

I cried when Sanjaya lost. I can't help it-I love the kid! He really just makes me happy to watch. He needs his own show doing something. An entertainment reporter? I wonder if he likes fashion? He could be in a toothpaste commerical with those teeth! Am I crazy??

The Top 7

Rundown of the Top 7 last night:

My fav Blake: I thought it was OK. He's always good but country did NOT suit him and I miss the beat boxing.
Lakisha: I didn't like her at all. I felt like she was screaming! Something about it seems like she was trying to hard. And who dresses her??
Sanjaya: He's a great performer but no, he was not a good singer last night. I think he has run his course. He DID make me smile a lot though and I think that's a great quality.
Melinda: I actually last night was the first time Melinda seemed like an Idol to me. She looked and sounded younger. I hope she keeps it up!

Chris: Well, he is the best dressed guy. I LOVE the way he looks every night. Last night's performance was not so great. He may go home. I hope he doesn't yet because I think he can do better.
Phil: I don't usually like Phil. When he doesn't wear a hat I REALLY don't like him. I don't know why and its not a very nice thing to say. Phil was really great last night though. It was a great vocal and a lot of fun. I still think he will be in the bottom 3.


Last but SO not least, the amazing Jordin: The dress. The hair. The voice. The dress. OK, I know they need to sing also and not just look good but she managed to do both. She really could win!

Sadness

Its been so sad hearing about everything happening in VA that I am trying to not think about it. I feel so selfish but if I obsess over something ELSE that I can't control I will lose my mind. Columbine, than 9/11, the Bush administration, gay rights, the innocent Iraqis AND the troops in the war, global warming, animal cruelty, ugh, I could go on forever! I know I'm not selfish. I campaign for Peta, I give money to the HRC, I vote and recycle. Today I NEED a distraction. I feel guilty but it overwhelms me. Do you guys feel this at all? I didn't have family in 9/11, but it still makes me cry randomly. I don't even know anyone in VA and its making me so sad. Before you even say it, yes, I have been on antidepressants since I was young, but this is different. I get so mad at some people, like my BFF Danielle who doesn't recycle or vote (ahhhh), or my brother who doesn't really feel any sadness for things like VTech. I get mad, but a part of me envies them. I have my own problems, my own life to deal with, and I know I need to focus on the positive while not being ignorant to the things happening in our world. I'm just going to try to do the best I can. I guess that's all I can do. Tomorrow, an American Idol post because its a positive, fun, distraction. Stay tuned! 2 words: Jordin's dress! *Sigh.

The next big thing

I've known about Shia Labeouf forever since I'm the girl who (currently) watches Even Stevens (Shia's show as a kid), The Suite Life of Zack and Cody, Hannah Montana, That's So Raven, etc. Shia is adorable and a great actor. LOVE "Holes." Now the world will know about him because of his new awesome new movie "Disturbia." If you are going to see a movie, skip the so-obvious-its-annoying "Perfect Stranger" and go see "Disturbia." It's so scary but awesome. Warning: If you don't like scary movies you may want to see "Year of the Dog."

I would rather be home with Tivo

I'm a little late catching up but I love DVR. I went away for the weekend and couldn't wait to get home and watch everything it recorded. Sad? I need a social life. I'm already through "The View," "Brothers and Sisters," (LOVE) and "Entourage." It sounds like a lot but I got it in in an hour and a half somehow. AND I'm sort of doing homework. Tonight is the last night I am going to watch 4 TV shows. I signed back up for the gym today. Of course instead of figuring out which class to take tomorrow I am trying to decided what to wear. Gym clothes are so expensive! My ideal is to go all out 80's with American Apparel. I know, its sweat-shop free which is great and all but its not exactly cheap for a whole outfit. Where do you get cute workout wear??

Freedom of Speech?

“If the Jews want to get it on, tell them to pin their yarmulkes back and come over to my house."
"Talk about how Oppenheimer in South Africa sends diamonds straight to Tel Aviv and deals with the diamond merchants right here in Crown Heights."
"I'm not your little faggot like (name deleted for respect.)"

Al Sharpton and Issiah Washington dissing Jews and gays respectively. Was there any suspension? Did anyone get fired? Not that I think they should have been. We are SUPPOSED to have freedom of speech in this country. No one thinks what Don Imus said was OK but doesn't he have a right to say whatever he wants?
To play devil's advocate against myself, CBS radio fired him because advertisers pulled out. And you can't have a radio show with no ads. BUT this was only after the media tore him apart.
When I heard what he said, I got chills through my body. It was so rude and disrespectful to these girls. But the problem is, I feel the same way when I hear some of the things Howard Stern says. So I don't listen. End of story.
I can't help but wonder, did anyone even stop watching Grey's Anatomy? Aside from the weak story lines, it continues to do well. I even watch it. Obviously there are double standards, but the million dollar question is, what can we do about them?

Thanks for the place of the pic! I don't think it looks THAT great here but I still love it. Does anyone watch Top Model? It was so good last night. I really love Britney (below). I think she's my favorite.



I also really like Dionne more and more.



If you guys watch, who do you like? Last night's episode was so good. I loved the idea for the shoot. I was sad to see Whitey go because she's soooo pretty but they were right; She didn't have that much spark in her eyes in the pictures and you can't just be pretty. I understand this stuff. I would be SUCH a good model...if I were 1/2 a foot taller and lost my hips.

Ahhh "Jennifer Lopez," we love you.

I'm using her name in quotes because she doesn't like JLo anymore so I am going to respect her wishes. (JLo is cute though.) This is an old pic but I love this dress and there isn't a pic of her Idol dress online yet. I just need to scream to anyone that will listen how amaaaazzing it was. Goodbye Haley, Jennifer sang great, and Sanjaya is still there, but Jennifer's dress is what gave me chills. What is that and where can I get it? I guess I should email www.whowhatweardaily.com. They'll figure it out. My new obsession! I loved hearing about yours. The hiking and biking activities are awesome. I wish they were mine and not Cadbury Eggs! More later. What did you guys think of the results?

He's no Chris Daughtry but..

I still love him! He may not have the most powerful voice or be tall and hunky but he makes me happy to watch and that's what an "Idol" is supossed to do, right? Melinda's great but I don't really feel like she is an Idol. Wouldn't it be awesome if it were Jordan and Blake in the finals? I would pay to see that. Sanjaya makes me happy also but no, he shouldn't win. OK, maybe you are sick of AI talk.





I know its been hot for a while, but I can't stop thinking about the YSL Muse bag. It has become a total obsession. I keep seeing women with it in the city. I saw a 17 year old with it! It COULD have been fake but it looked real. What are your current obsessions??

Exhaustion

* I apologize for the spelling. The spell check isn't working and I'm too tired to care!
It was such a long day! But a good one. Thanks so much for the nice words. If you are not in NYC, it was snowing yesterday! It was supossed to be early Spring on The Sopranos set so I was wearing a light jacket and freezing to death. Like really, I couldn't feel my feet and we were outside for about 5 hours. It was still awesome though. It was boring and monotnous, we did the same thing over and over, but awesome. What's even better is that you meet people. I met a really nice girl who just moved into my 'hood so I invited her over to watch the new season. We shot at Montclair High School in NJ which was really nice and pretty. Just cold. I PROMISED my BFF Danielle I would meet her at the Yankees game at 7:05 for the first pitch and at 6 we were still in Jersey so it really wasn't looking good. So I hopped a ride with these two girls in front of me in line to fill out paperwork and they dropped me off at a train station so I could get back into the city quicker than the van we drove in on. It was so nice of them. I didn't make 7:05 but I was pretty close. We only stayed 'til 9 though because we were freezing. I had finally gotten warm! There was no amount of hot choclate that was helping so we went and had dinner and I went to bed.

To answer the question of my fainting spell, it was at an HBO shoot for the documenty "Addiction." I'm sure you have seen the ads around. They're everywhere! I'm just in the ads and the promos. The documentry is real people with addiction. Well to make a very long story short, I had barley eaten, the studio in Brooklyn was really hot, there were really bright lights, and I was up on the top of a bleacher. It was like a movie. Everything went black and I went down. So embarassing! I cringe still thinking out it. This nice man carried me off and people ran and got orange juice to bring my sugar back up. The people on that shoot were the nicest people I have ever worked with in my life. They made me feel so comfortable for the rest of the 2 day shoot. The photographer kept asking me if I was alright! ugh. It was an experience.

On a fashion obsessed note, I need a new pair of wide leg jeans but can't spend $200. Has anyone found good ones? Forever 21 had cute ones but they didn't fit well.

Everyone have the best holiday! I'm going to my grandmom's to eat and watch episode after episode of Law and Order. Back to the real world...

My 2nd Fav Family

So many of us have dreams. It may sound corny, but you know the deal. You are supposed to be doing homework or helping a client at work and you're thinking of it. When someone asks you what you want to do with your life, you pause before answering. I have always kept mine a secret for a lot of reasons. Mostly because I didn't want anyone to knock it down. Also, it's kinda' nice to keep it to myself. Well, I'm done...mostly. I'm "out" as a wanna-be actor to most of the people close to me. I just love it. Of course I want some money to be comfortable in this city, but I really just want to be in crazy, provocative, amazing movies/T.V. shows. OK, goal set now the hard part of actually stop being a wuss and put myself out there. Why is it so scary? It isn't just the rejection that I am obviously going to face. I don't really know what it is. Its easier to sit at home, watching Top Model, and hoping I'll get discovered when I actually go out. The problem is, it doesn't happen. And if it does, its to 5'10'' leggy tourists taking pictures of buildings in Times Square. Needless to say, that's not me. So I have to start knocking down doors. I need to get them slammed in my face. Easier said than done. Now, I have other goals, like working at a top fashion mag, and teaching Special Needs kids. So if this acting thing doesn't work out, there are other things I would be happy doing. But I won't know if I can do it until I try.
I'm sure you're wondering why I have a picture of the Sopranos family. Tomorrow I am being a high school student in a episode of the new season. It a super tiny job, but its something. Any ideas on what to wear? What do Jersey high school kids wear now? I'm nervous and I don't know why. I don't even have to say anything! Its a mixture of actually working towards my dream and also because last time I worked for HBO I fainted in front of 100 people. That's a whole other post.
What are you guys most afraid of accomplishing? And why is it so scary? Since I'm doing this tomorrow, I want everyone to conquer something that makes them uncomfortable. My dad always told me that the hardest thing to do is usually the right thing and it seems to be turning out to be true. I'll let you know how it goes! xo

Skinny Shoes

The world, or just NYC, is going crazy over these shoes. From the company MBT, http://www.blissworld.com/product/code/MBT-23.do?showPrevNext=false these sneakers are supossed to do everything from reducing celulite to getting rid of back pain. Sounds too good to be true, right? At $254 dollars a pop, they are an investment but less than 3 months at the gym. Physical Therapists have told me how much of a joke they are and how I will probably break my ankle trying to wear them. There is also the fact that they are really ugly. Even so, I can't help but want them because maybe they will work at making my butt smaller for bikini season. I feel like the fact that so many people have them, they have to at least work a little. Is that want they want us to think? Am I falling into the "diet pill" mentality that I always stayed away from?

Leggings?

I have about 30 secs to blog, but I really wanted to know how everyone felt about colored leggings? At American Apparel last night, I couldn't help but love the dark pinks ones! What would I wear them with? And what if you have less than model legs? What do you think??

"Why don't you like me?"

No, I'm not really asking. That would be very annoying. I'm quoting my latest obsession. If you haven't heard of Mika yet, you will. I don't know a lot about music, but I do know that he is beautiful and has the most amazing voice ever. Download Grace Kelly and Love Today and begin your obsession! It's really intoxicating. All his shows are sold out here in NYC but he is going to be at the Columbus Circle Borders March 30th at 4 p.m.. I'll see you there! Now, does anyone know if he's straight? I doubt it. The good one's never are.

It's a Starbucks kinda' day...

I should be studying. Instead I'm drinking 5 cups of black tea, eating a multigrain apple donut (0 grams of trans fat but 500 cals I'm sure), and watching a woman smoke a cigarette she found on the ground. I love people watching. All the different styles walking up and down West Broadway provide some serious entertainment for me. Hey, that's where I get a lot of my fashion ideas. I'm usually focusing on something in particular. Sometimes it's shoes, sometimes bags. Today it's pants. This is because I don't like pants. I have just never in my life chosen jeans and a t-shirt over a dress and boots. I am maybe the only person in the world that thinks denim is totally overused. Also, since I'm not allowed to wear jeans to work, I have to search for casual but stylish pants. I LOATHE it. Last night I went to 3 different stores and hated almost every pair I tried on. Granted, I was PMSing and wasn't at the most high quality stores, but still. First stop, Forever 21 for some cheap, wide leg, linen, sailor style ones. The smalls were a little too tight, too many apple multigrain donuts, and the mediums too big. Ever hear of using numbers? Ugh. Next, H&M whose dresses are amazing but pants don't always fit a curvy body so well. Tried on a bunch with no luck. They were either see-through, too long, or just pulled at some places and were too big in others. Lastly Zara, which was very promising but they close so early! The security guard kicked me out. So, girls, help! What pants will you be wearing this Spring?? Ideas, ideas, please!! Or should I just give up and buy 30 dresses and be done with it? I want to look cute but different. Every single girl at school wears super skinny jeans, BRIGHT sneakers, and a puffy jacket. It's nauseating, but at least they are putting the Uggs to rest.
PS If you were wondering why I'm not in Jersey on The Sopranos set, it got rescheduled to April 4th. I'll keep you updated on another blink-and-you'll-miss-me job.

Am I giving up?

If you were in the city this weekend, you know there was a war protest up 2nd Avenue. Walking by with my mom and my grand mom I got really choked up. I had goosebumps seeing priests standing next to gay rights activists proudly holding rainbow flags. It was a great New York moment for me. Then today, walking down Chambers St. in Tribeca, there was a similar protest but this time all high school students. It was so amazing to see these smart, educated and passionate teens rally for something they cared about so much. It made me feel like I should be doing more. I don't know a person who is more against this administration than me, but I'm not protesting. It made me think, does it really make a difference? Will the 2nd Ave/Chambers protests really change anything? Or is it my fault; Am I giving up? I guess voting is my protest against what is going on but should we be doing more? Does it matter? What do you guys think?

To All My Fellow Bloggers...

First, I just want to give props to the writers who inspired me to start this blog. All the ladies at Glamour Mag, especially Ashley Baker, http://www.glamour.com/fashionbeauty/blogs/fashion , I just love. They are funny, smart, and ridicously entertaining. Check them out. Perez Hilton, http://www.perezhilton.com/ , love him or hate him, is the ultimate blogger. He knows things before they happen and keeps me up to date on everything from Britney to serious political issues. Love you Perez. At first I wasn't sure about blogs. I used to feel like they were to impersonal. Thanks to other great bloggers, I see how personal, heartfelt, fun, and educational a great blog can be. I want to talk about everything here. Please don't hold back! Some posts may be light and fun, some serious and dark, but please join in and speak amongst yourselves. I want to know, what do you want to you want to talk about most here? What do you NOT want to hear about? What are you totally sick of hearing about? Thanks and Welcome! xo
PS Spell check isn't working. It will get better ;)